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Life can be tough. I know that we all know this, but it’s just heavy on my mind at the moment. Ever since I was little I have always been a very analytical thinker. My mind doesn’t stop at “life is tough”. I often feel like I’m constantly searching for the answers. I don’t like just accepting the obvious without fully exploring the meaning or the purpose. So this morning has been tough and it has me thinking. The last two years for me have been very sleep deprived. Starting with the end of my pregnancy and all the way through to this moment, when my son is 1.5 years old. I have a healthy and strong baby boy, but he really still likes mama snuggles in the middle of the night. This has caused me almost two years of sleep deprivation and that results in a lot of mixed emotions. Sometimes sleep deprivation can make you think honestly about life. It often highlights your weaknesses and creates strains on your strengths. It can bring out the conflicts in your relationships that you are more likely to ignore in more carefree moments. So for me, sleep deprivation has led me to a very tough season of life. I know God is wanting me to pay attention to things that I have been burying internally for a long time and I just never realized it. For that reason, I am thankful and I know I will come out on the other side in a much better place personally. But that brings me to my original point. Life can be tough and what I’m realizing is that really life is just full of seasons. These seasons are filled with a variety of experiences ranging from blissful and free moments to seasons of hardships. This may seem so obvious, but for me this is really sticking out as a very important point. Because, even though we can’t fully control what seasons are coming at us and when, we can control a few things that will help us enjoy life to the fullest through any season.
1) We can control our relationship with God. It’s so important to stay close to God always. Not only in the bad times, but also through the good times. This helps us stay grounded, grateful, and humble. That way it’s not as large of a fall when you hit the tough seasons.
2) We can control our relationships. Who are we allowing into our lives and what is the quality of those relationships? Whether it be family, friends, or your spouse, setting a solid foundation even in the good times will lead to better resiliency in the tough times.
3) Our relationship with ourselves. Have you had an honest conversation with yourself lately? It’s important to be honest with ourselves about our faults and to actively work through them. It’s also key, to recognize your strengths and avoid talking negatively to yourself or about yourself. We need to strive for our best version of us and I don’t mean the skinniest or prettiest version. I mean the best character we can embody that best represents our personal values. When you’re confident and proud of the person that you are, then you can be more equipped to face life’s challenges head on and with a strong knowing of who you are.

This tough time is leading me back to God and it’s highlighting those personal faults and relationship issues I’ve subconsciously put on the back burner. This is God’s timing and I trust that it was meant to happen this way in order for me to gain the best results, but if I had started with a better relationship with God, others, and myself, then this tough season wouldn’t feel as, well, tough. However, I am optimistic that because of this seemingly large “fall” I will be able to build back up to a better version of my life that will be enjoyed more in the good seasons and endured better in the tough seasons.