Here we go. God has been telling me to write lately and this morning it was a stronger message than ever. I’m writing this on my phone as I don’t have my own computer yet, but this couldn’t wait. This morning was a great one. It is only 9:30 in the morning, but I feel so filled with peace and the warmth of God’s love. I have been having many moments with Christ lately and I want to begin writing them down so that I don’t forget them and so that I can share them. So, I’d like to start by sharing what occurred this morning. I don’t think I will be forgetting this morning, the morning of March 3rd.
It started off fairly usual as I woke up to get my son from his crib at around 6:00 am. God led me to create a schedule for myself last night. One that I can roughly follow daily so that I can add some structure to my days. So today I was going to test out this schedule and it starts with dropping my son off at daycare at around 8:00 am and then heading straight to workout after.
I returned home from dropping my son off and thought about how beautiful the morning was. While it was 30 degrees, there was no wind like we’ve had the last few days and there was allll the sun! I knew it was the perfect morning for me to take my dog on a run. My older dog, Happy, has been gaining the quarantine weight with us, so he was first on the list. We took a new route, taking in some new sights, the fresh air, and that sun. Once Happy started giving me the nod “I’ve had enough Mom”, we began to make the loop back home. Panting his way into the house, we were greeted by our younger dog, Kenzie. She’s full of energy and lean as can be. However, she’s a pain to run with! She likes to cut right in front of your feet while you try to run, it’s just not safe for any of us. So, I knew that for us it would be a nice relaxing walk in the sun.
We trekked out onto our usual loop as I clicked through my phone trying to find what God would lead me to today. I found myself on the page of Minister Nate Johnston. He’s an Australian guy who lives in California with his wife and now three kids (one was born just a few weeks ago!). Nate has been very involved with ministering around the current events and climate and it’s been really helpful for me to have him as a reference during this awakening. As Kenzie and I neared the end of our loop, I could hear a flock of geese somewhere nearby. I became so eager to spot them, but I could not see them from where I was. I can’t say that this is something that would normally grab my attention or even further, call me to seek it in sight. This is an example of how slowing down and practicing mindfulness has helped me become more observant and aware of my surroundings and of nature.
Although we were approaching the house, I decided to visit the stream that runs alongside our home and see if the geese might’ve been taking a break in there. Walking towards the stream, I felt silly. Silly, not for seeking the geese, but for realizing how much I have taken for granted that park and flowing water right behind our house. You see, the park has been nothing more than a great place to get my toddler out of the house on the nice days, but this morning it was different.
For this morning, God reserved the park for me and Kenzie. He called us to sit on the park bench right next to the water. For a moment, we sat there and I looked up noticing the sun perfectly positioned in front of me but not directly in my line of sight. The heat of the sun was salient. In the 30 degree crisp air, the sun gave me a warm blanket to sit comfortably. The heat wrapped nicely around my legs as if it was telling me “stay a while, you’re right where you need to be”. I gazed down at the stream. There was still no wind, but enough movement in the air to move the water just enough to leave it trickling over the rocks. With the distinguished rays of sun shining down on me and the water, I was served a beautiful glistening sight to which I set my gaze while soaking in the glory of god’s word. Nate Johnston was sharing a message that I had been looking for over the last week and could not find. God saved it for this moment.
The message was that many of us who have been walking in god’s light have been spiritually attacked for some time. This is a new concept to me, one that I have learned over the last several months. One that is very real and provides a lot of answers pertaining to life’s struggles. You see, many people feel that when they’re going through something hard that God has forgotten about them. But really, those times are the enemy’s counter moves to your godly presence. As God’s people, we have been attacked and beaten down by the enemy in an effort to thwart our progress in God’s name. It is only with God that we can overcome the enemy’s efforts. And just like you may feel God has abandoned you, you have to make sure that you are not really the one abandoning God. That is the goal of the enemy. This is the concept of faith. You keep your faith in God during the times of evil’s work and God will get you through. He must. It is his promise, as long as we also keep our promise. Our promise to seek him when we are in trouble, to love him, know him, and bring others to him, and to do what is right. Our promise to forgive others, not judge others, and to repent and ask for his forgiveness when we are inevitably imperfect. God is there, he always was. He always will be. His hand is reaching out to yours, will you reach back?
Nate shared a dream he had, where an angel brought him through the enemy’s dwelling. They showed him how spiritual warfare takes place. God was showing Nate that he is breaking off these attacks. He is freeing us from the stronghold of the enemy that has been holding us back from our calling. He is removing the shackles that have been in place for so long only allowing us to make baby steps in our purpose. Now is the time that God is saying “Enough!” to the enemy, “you have gone too far!”. It is time for us to break free and to do what we are here on this earth to do.
I know that God has been positioning me in the last 6 months to recognize my calling. Sometimes it can feel so buried beneath many layers of conditioning and limiting beliefs, but we can get there. We can pray and take notes. We can make baby steps by following God’s guidance each day. Eventually we will get there. Right now, God told me to write this passage and I did. I can’t wait to hear what’s next.
Edit: Today is March 29th and it is not even a month after this first writing and Freedom Faith Mama is born. I didn’t know at the time that I wrote this, that it would be the first blog post on my new blog and that I would have the blog built by the end of the month, but this is exactly what I mean by trusting in God and taking in his guidance. You may have no idea what he has in store for you and you won’t find out until you try!
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